there’s too much going on and too many things and not enough time to process.
there are not enough hours in the day. good thing i’m literally too busy to dwell over a broken heart.
i’m two diet cokes in, one more in the fridge calling my name. two laptops and my notebook and endless colored pens all over my desk. it’s going to be a long night.
i’m slowly losing my mind.
but little things made me happy today… like going to the library early and getting my usual cubicle. and having friends bring you chocolate. and a guy calling me out for not recycling- i was thrown off at first, but how refreshing to find someone who will actually call out a stranger for the sake of the environment. he still put a smile on my face.
oh, and it’s raining :)
despite the bad and the stress and the anxiety, i’m happy today.
i finally feel at peace in my mind.
(even though there are a million things i wish i could change, and even though this is probably fleeting)
and i’m just happy because it’s raining and i drove home with the windows down, and yeah our garage could potentially flood, but the radio was playing my favorite dierks bentley song and the air smells like rain, and it’s amazing.
so even though i’m stressed about school, even though i’m nervous about tomorrow, even though certain things are unrequited, it’s okay.
things have worked out thus far, and they will continue to do so.
Brooke: We go days without having a meaningful conversation and I used to miss you so much when that happened, but it never seemed like you missed me, and I guess because of that I stopped missing you. I mean look at today…
Lucas: I guess I should have said something, anything. I mean, for a guy who wants to be a
writer lawyer, it suddenly seemed like no words had ever been written, but when someone tells you that they somehow stopped missing you, you’re pretty much screwed no matter what you say. Brooke, I’m sorry.
Brooke: I can’t do this anymore.
Lucas: See, but there had to be something, right? Something that nobody had said in the history of the world, something that could change this. Brooke, I’m sorry.
Brooke: Yeah, me too.
Lucas: That wasn’t it.
I hope I never get tired of this view.
“The less you associate with some people, the more your life will improve. Any time you tolerate mediocrity in others, it increases your mediocrity. An important attribute in successful people is their impatience with negative thinking and negative acting people. As you grow, your associates will change. Some of your friends will not want you to go on. They will want you to stay where they are. Friends that don’t help you climb will want you to crawl. Your friends will stretch your vision or choke your dream. Those that don’t increase you will eventually decrease you.” – Colin Powell
Saw this quote today and it struck a chord with me (obvs). First impressions matter and it’s easy to tell who will be the kind of person to lift you up, or who will be the kind of person to drag you down for their own gains. Sometimes I can be too rough a judge of character, but I haven’t been wrong so far. I’m glad I have a few good ones, here and at home, who I know have my back.